Hello My Ladies and My Fellows!

It’s March and I am late posting!  I wanted to start March 1st…arrrgggg…procrastination, your name has been, Therosia! But no more! No more I say! LOL!…but seriously, I’m starting.

I have been confronted with this thought so many times over the last few weeks,

JUST START!!

 

I cannot speak for anyone else but I have the worst tendency to overanalyze my dreams and then procrastinate.  I become paralyzed by the fear of messing up or not knowing what to do or sometimes having too many options!

Strangely, I am a very confident woman but sometimes, I still fear going forward or worse I go forward and then stand still after I have started.  Why??!!  Why do I find myself stagnating my way to self sabotage with fear, indecisiveness and flat out ignance?!  (Yes, I know it is spelled “ignorance” but colloquial phrasing and emotional emphasis dictates that I spell it IGNANCE. You see, I’m part Negro and Boughettry.  We will discuss that another time but for today, grammar lesson averted. Back to my point.)  Why?!

One of my spiritual fathers and mentors, Dr. Allen McCray (author of Who’s Behind The Mask and Founder of Life Impact), would say that it is a self sabotaging behavior formed from subconscious values and beliefs.  He is more than likely right but I’m still learning about that from him.  So, in the meantime and in between time ya girl is learning to do something stupid and brilliant at the same time…fail forward.  I heard this for the first time from a pastor friend of mine, Pastor Chad M. Johnson (Elevate International), a few years ago and thought, “That’s absolutely crazy!  I am not going to start off believing that I can fail my way to success”, but…here we are years later and his ministry has grown exponentially.  My life’s work is growing but it is doing so with a slower pace.  There is nothing wrong with slow growth, in fact that is usually best.  For example, slow weight loss is best for maintained weight loss.  However, sometimes slow growth is the result of sparingly investing.  What I mean is, procrastination in going forward produces little because it is giving only as much as I feel “safe” giving; only putting myself out there enough to the point where I don’t “feel” like my failure will cost me.  This mindset accomplishes nothing or little at most.  It is a false sense of security and an attitude of being a child of a lesser God.  Risk is about trust and faith.  Trust that God will do what He said and faith that it will turn out well for me in the end.

Now what do I do?  Well, frankly, I war between throwing the white flag up and running at it like Tony Montana did it in my favorite gangster movie death scene from Scarface, “Say Hello To My Little Friend!” and “I take all you bullets.” (Paraphrase, “You [messing] with the best!” Yes, I not so secretly love gangster movies.  But I digress.)  The surrender method nor the Scarface method work very well.  They are limited and temporarily successful at best.

The only real way that I have seen great success is following riskily and being rewarded humbly.  It is in having a passion connected to a purpose bigger than myself and in following that purpose of the One higher than myself, that real success is possible.  It is in receiving notoriety but letting it all be a reminder of who is the One truly deserving of praise.  It is when my purpose is not about me, my swag, my name, my reputation or my “good standing” that I can accept falling or failing forward as apart of the process of growing closer to the truth because my pride is killed in knowing that I am not the end all be all nor am I the source of greatness (Yes, RUN ON! To The Extreme!).  It is in knowing that I am a hot mess already and my failures don’t make me worse, they help me learn to be better.  It is in allowing my gifts, talents and callings to be a way to serve others and draw closer to God by humbly accepting that He is the only perfect one and the only real adult.  I am just a cosmic kid trying to step in my Daddy’s footprints.  It is here that real success is grasped because it’s not about the destination or how good I look.  It is about the journey and learning to enjoy the company of the One who is there with me through it all.  So I can just GO; Just Start and not fear messing up; not worry about making the right decision; not care if these should be commas, colons, or semi-colons,  because it is apart of growing, learning and yes it is a part of succeeding.  I embrace my failures as building blocks and starting blocks for the next leg of the race.

To those of us who have struggled…Just Start!  Just Go!!

Failure awaits and that is how you shall succeed.

Final note:

All March long I am listening to and challenging myself to the 30 day challenge by Earl Nightingale  (You can view it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XL9528Gohe0 )

It challenges us to start, to go and it asks us to really view the gifts and time we have as unlimited in it’s potential.  I dare you to do it with me! Make your 30 day test and comment below all month long.  I might have prizes for the ones who stick it out with me.

Alright y’all I gotta go. Life is calling and I am on the GO!

Life, Love, Blessings and Besos!

Therosia